Healing OT

For those that know without saying it has now been 4 years today. As a very positive update/ I'm doing well. It has been a very long troubled road but eventually I did come out the other end feeling and being a whole person. You know, someone who has experienced the death of a loved one or my case a partner, you lose a part of yourself not only them. There is no doubt others handled it better than I, but I did eventually. That is part of the conflict, feeling better over the grief. Guilt of feeling strength in contradiction of once saying "I can never live without you". Which you feel and then you do "live". Now what?...still living...now what?...still living...now what? Waiting for answers that no one can give you but the submission to "live". I have reached that point, not easily but I did and it has been wonderful. I am now feeling a strength within that was never there. Steve will always be with me but now he is along on my journey. Love PC

Way to go Patty! I can surprise us when we realize how much strength we really have. What don't kill us makes us stronger.

Patty Cakes Said: For those that know without saying it has now been 4 years today. As a very positive update/// Im doing well. It has been a very long troubled road but eventually I did come out the other end feeling and being a whole person. You know, someone who has experienced the death of a loved one or my case a partner, you lose a part of yourself not only them. There is no doubt others handled it better than I, but I did eventually. That is part of the conflict, feeling better over the grief. Guilt of feeling strength in contradiction of once saying I can never live without you. Which you feel and then you do live. Now what?...still living...now what?...still living...now what? Waiting for answers that no one can give you but the submission to live. I have reached that point, not easily but I did and it has been wonderful. I am now feeling a strength within that was never there. Steve will always be with me but now he is along on my journey. Love PC

Patty, I don't know you or your situation but your post touches me. I cannot possibly know how you feel but if I lost my Denise, it would take me much longer than 4 years to shake it off. We were talking yesterday and figured out that we have had a relationship for about 42 years now...37 married. I don't know what life is without her.

Mike very sorry to hear about your Mom. My condolences. I understand the blessing, my Dad was a stroke victim for 14 years bedridden. We kept thinking the TLC my Mom gave him kept him going. Keep the fond memories close to heart. Respectfully, PC

Patty, I feel for you, hang in there, time is a healer, My Mom died just recently on Good Friday of colon cancer, the pain and suffering was the worst of it, death was actually the blessing, the peacemaker. Semper Fi.